I wish you were still here with me, you could make this all go away. You made everything easier to forget about. I miss you so much but I feel like it’s too late to gain anything back. You’ve moved on to a new way of living and left me here by myself, something you said you’d never do. I’ve never had this feeling before, not even close. I believed every word you said and thought it was the truth, probably because all I ever told you was the truth. I thought we felt the same way about each other, sometimes I even felt like you cared more than I did. I guess I was wrong. I wish you would have taken things as seriously as I did, I even thought about our future together. If only everything we had wasn’t based on a lie, maybe we could have gone somewhere. We could have been something.

After high school, I’m going to make something of myself. I’m going to be successful. And when I get there, I’m going to laugh at the people who were too busy getting messed up all the time, the people who were out getting pregnant, and the people who couldn’t have enough dedication to even achieve getting their diploma. This year has been the worst year of my life, but I wouldn’t change anything about it even if I were given the chance. I’ve learned that I have no one to live for but myself, and I’m going to do just that. I refuse to go down the path that everyone else has chosen.